Holidays

Holidays used to be a great time--a lot of fun and laughter. This year it's turned into tears and stress.

Saddness and grief plus stress = an unhappy home. I miss my pappa so much and I'm NOT looking forward to the first set of holidays without him. I can't even imagine how hard it's going to be to go into his house and not see him sitting at 'his' chair at the dining room table sneaking a doughnot that he isn't allowed to have. I don't get anymore good luck head rubs. I don't even get to go decorate his ICU room with Santa Hats like I did Christmas of '08.

On top of all of this, the craziness of the holidays is stressing me out.