It really makes me sad to think that the only time I see my husband with our son is at night. During the day, he's at work, and when he gets home, he holds him for five minutes then passes him off to someone else. It's getting to the point where I can't hide my disappointment anymore.
I walk in the dor thinking Mike will be spending time with our son since he actually had a day off, but no, I should have known that someone else would have him. I understand everyone wants to hold him and love him, which is great, but daddy should have his time first. I'm not saying that he never spends time with Dominic, he does, but I never thought he'd be so okay with someone else having him when he hasn't spent that much time with him. I feel like I'm rambling and I probably am but it's better than crying in front of my mother-in-law and having to explain everything. I just want to walk in the door and see my two men together.
On the way home from seeing my new little cousin, I knew Mike had Dominic and I thought to myself how nice it will be to see them together. Then I walk in the door and my heart drops with disappointment. Mike doesn't have our baby anymore and is playing the Wii...
Such is life with post partum crap...one day I suppose it'll get better.
I know exactly how you feel...it can very frustrating and heartbreaking all at the same time. Chris still comes home and sometimes he just lays down and doesn't spend anytime with the kids. The there are days where all he does is play with them. I've been there, if you need someone to talk to you know i'm always here!
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel. When Leah was a newborn, all I wanted to do was be with her 24/7. Daniel loved her but was looking forward to some us time. It hurt my feelings a little bit. He is still like that a little. A few months ago, I was watching some show about a couple who was having marital problems because she was feeling resentment towards him about the baby. She didnt feel he was spending enough time with him. The counselor asked the mom if she felt that "in love" feeling for her baby. Of course she said yes. She asked the father the same question and he said no. The counselor explained that we are wired differently and its not the dads fault for feeling the way he does. Babies need their mothers so much God wired us to want to be with them all the time. Babies need their dads but not like they need mom. Hearing this helped me. Hope it helps you.
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