I love my life, I wouldn't trade my husband and son for anything in this world. Night's like tonight keep my mind racing. I question my decisions. Did I get married for the right reasons? Is our marriage solely based off of a pregnancy? How these thoughts enter my mind is unknown. Just as much unknown is how to rid my mind of them.
I have never, nor will I ever, question my love for my husband. He means everything to me and I'd do anything possible for him. He's my world, my best friend. He's the one that's been here for me through everything. A lot of things he probably shouldn't have dealt with; but, he did because he loves me.
So why do I sit here tonight and question if my marriage is really strong enough to last? I know it is but still I wonder...
Doubtful I'll get any sleep tonight but here's to a better tomorrow :)
I think we all ask ourselves those same questions at some point, especially after huge changes in my life. I've been there, many times. You wonder what is solid, what is real, what can last. If things can change so comepletely in such a short amount of time, does that make nothing permanent anymore?
ReplyDeleteI had to learn to trust my marriage and my instincts. Nothing in this life is easy, even if everything is done by the book.
The best we can hope to do is to try our very hardest to endure and to do everything within our power to make it work. Vow to be there, no matter what. That's what marriage is. Thick and thin, better or worse, you stand by each other and make it work.
It's never simple, but the rewards are so worth it!
I did the same thing too..it's something we all question and it will go away I promise! The more time goes by the farther it will be in your mind TRUST ME:-)
ReplyDeleteThanks girls! I love ya'll!
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